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A very special person once introduced me to Sarah McLachlan’s Angel.  Some of the words I find very moving and so real to my personal life.

“So tired of the straight line.”  In so many different ways I was born into the world where people like to draw lines.  And every one thinks that there lines are straight.  Once they are convinced that their lines are straight, some how it has the power to manuver you in accord with its direction.  Be it the line by the church, or by the community, or by mass media, or by academia, and so on and so forth.  It gets very tired after a while.  Tired because it is so hard to get there and when we imagned that we are there, it is so hard to maintain ourselves at this place.  It is a fragile place to be.

“So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack.”

And so how long can one lie to oneself and soon our soul screams for the self to find that place of authenticity and we are forced to have to negotiate this straight line and still find our soul.  It is not an easy path.

“Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight”

I can certainly understand the phrase “There’s always one reason to feel not good enough and it’s hard at the end of the day.”  And when that beautiful distraction takes place, it is beyond words can describe.  Some time in some strange way in some strange land God brings events or people into our lives that makes it ok for us to detour from the straight line, thatgives us a break and makes it ok.  I like to think, in Jung’s synchronicity paradigm, that this is one of the miracles of life that God brinngs to us.  The gift of the dotted circular line, the presence of an angel in our lives.

“In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there”

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